Monday, September 2, 2013

New gig, new rig.


New gig...

I cannot believe how much fun law school is. Though the staff, professors, and 2Ls (Second Year Law students) put forth a concerted effort to warn us about how hard it will be and how very little time we will have for family and friends, and here are the numbers for Lawyer Therapists, and on and on. 

I am doing the "part time" program, which means it will take me four years instead of three. It also means that I only have three classes this term where everyone else has five. I can see how five classes would mean zero time for anything but eating, sleeping, reading, and attending class. 

Three classes is a very reasonable workload. 

I started school August 5, though "real law school" didn't start until August 26th. Willamette offers a two week, 7 hours a day, Intro to Law School course (which we quickly began calling "Fake Law School"). There were 49 of us, about a third of the incoming class. The course was free, all supplies provided. Our time was spent with two professors: one focused on teaching us law school skills (reading a case, reducing it to the nuggets of facts (case brief), outlining courses, studying for exams) and the second focused on teaching us the basics of criminal law as it applies to Murder and all the lesser included offenses (manslaughter, negligence, self-defense). We practiced the student behaviors on the murder topic. At the end, we had a "Fake Law Exam" which will be graded and returned to us. Very fun stuff. By the end, half of us were prosecutors and half were defense attorneys, negotiating a plea agreement for a woman who killed her abusive husband. 

Then we had three full days of Orientation. I was skeptical that any school would need three days to orient students to a program, and feared that this would be a great big waste of time. But it was not. Three days learning how to log in to the variety of tools available to us, learning about the Attorney/Student mentor program, learning the nuances of student loans, learning the basics of law (think: SchoolHouse Rock, How a Bill Becomes A Law").

And then, August 26, Real Law School. Real. Law. School. 

New Rig.

But early Saturday morning, the weekend before my first Real Day at school, I stepped out of bed to yell at the dogs to stop barking. Stepped out like I've done approximately 18,410 times before. On my toes, lower my heel. And Pop. Something went Pop. Accompanied by a quick electric shock. I have felt that before, though much stronger, when I ruptured my Achilles Tendon.

To the ER, and three hours later learned I had not broken my ankle, but I had torn a ligament. Ligaments keep the bones together so they can do their job. 

Monday morning, bright and early (*), a little floaty from pain meds, my crutches and I head to the train station. The train pulls into Salem at 6:42 AM, and Willamette is right across the street. No problem, I can swing over there and crutch up the road to the Bishop Wellness Center. I was hoping they had Knee Scooters to loan out. Halfway there, I just couldn't go any farther. So I took a break and leaned against a lamp post. Pretty shortly, Mike the Groundskeeper rolled by in his go-cart gardening rig and gave me a ride the rest of the way. Thank you Mike!! The BWC did not have a Knee Scooter to loan. But the PA-C looked at my ankle and said, "Yep, ligament." So then I caught a ride with Joe the Campus Security officer across campus to the law school (thank you Joe!!). After class, I got a cab to the Pacific Medical Supply Company on Commercial and rented a Knee Scooter ($75 for the month).

Here's my new rig.

Now, I scoot around school, my 124 pound backpack hanging on the handles. Pretty slick.

Tuesday morning, the first day of Legal Research and Writing, the professor asked for bids for the honor to start the sign in sheet each day. I asked what value that might have, so I could properly judge the value of my opening bid. He said that attending the class AND passing the class were minimum requirements to earning a JD. Don't show up one to many times, and you have to take the class over, even if you turned in all the work and earned passing marks on the assignments. Signing the sheet is the only verification that you've been in class. The person who starts the sheet is guaranteed to never miss signing in. 

Oh. That's quite important. I asked what winning bids had been in the past. Plates of cookies, stuff like that. 

Okay. I offered him a ride on my scooter. A chuckle. He asked if there were any other bids. One girl said she didn't want to bid because she kind of wanted to see him ride the scooter. The rest of the class agreed; I won.  So, Professor Edward Harri, a very renowned attorney and famous instructor of legal writing, scooted around the class on my scooter. A short ride. But very fun. 

Pretty soon now, I will post the photos and stories from my summer trip to England. But right now, I have to go finish packing the books and knicknacks (paddywhack, give the dog a bone) in my office and bedrooms so the carpet layers can move furniture and install new carpet TOMORROW!! oh, and I have to do some homework and studying for law school!

(*) I'm taking the Amtrak Train to school and the Amtrak bus home each day. The train leaves Eugene at 5:30 AM, arriving in Salem at 6:42. The "4:35 bus" has NEVER been on time, in fact has never been within 30 minutes of being on time, so I usually get to Eugene around 7:00. Before I blew out my ankle, my commute was: Drive over my hill and park the truck. Bike in to the train station, lock the bike and off to Salem. Return, unlock the bike, ride back to the truck, put the bike on the rack and drive home, usually arriving around 8:00. So, I spent the summer researching electric bike motors and found one I loved. The motor kit arrived Monday after I tore my ligament. I won't be able to use it until November or December. But when I can ride again, I can leave the truck at home. The motor will get me over the hill, then my own power to get to the station. Exercise, Fresh Air, and zero parking fees or gas bill.

Sunday, May 26, 2013

Up in smoke...

It's the end of May 2013. 

Five years ago, I was still looking for a house to buy in Eugene, still working on the divorce papers and math, still not sure about my employment after July 31, 2008. 

Seven years ago, in late May 2006, my carefully crafted façade cracked and began to crumble, and I made a phone call to Rich Brown to get help. His business card says "LCSW" but I think that is pronounced /hero/. 

So today I burned my journals from that long dark time. Six books, filled with angst and heartache and hope and anger and despair, and back to hope again. 

I don't need those journals anymore. I don't need to reflect on the words I wrote back then. The lessons I struggled so hard to avoid have been learned and a new way of being is developing.

And to ensure a sweetened new life, I made s'mores from the flames of my past.

(Note to self: It doesn't take very much gasoline to make a fire. Not very much at all. And stand back when you toss the match... wwwaaayyyy back)

 

Monday, May 13, 2013

COAST yes...


Sidney left this morning after nearly a week of very hard, very productive work on our Human Subjects Research approval application. Sort of like writing a dissertation proposal (essentially all the same topic areas), but you only get three pages. So we first wrote the big application (more than 10 pages), and then carefully, surgically, cut out all but the essential pieces. 

Next step: Complete all the related documents (parent permission forms, informed consent forms, recruitment ads and telephone script, etc). I should have that done by Friday.

Then we send the whole kit to Dr. Eric Fombonne for editing. He has to obtain Human Subjects Research approval from Oregon Health & Science University before we can apply for UO approval. Once we have both institutions' approvals, we can start talking to parents! and collecting data!! and writing up our results!!!

ho boy, I am pretty excited to get to this next phase. One step closer to publishing the COAST and having it used in schools. 

 

UO no...


Finally picked up my mail, and opened my letter from UO Law.

What? You can't deny me, I've already declined you! (ala you can't fire me, I quit)...

So, the stars were aligned for me, I'll attend the program that best fits my needs, and get to visit my Salem and Dallas friends more regularly.

Life is good. Exceedingly good.

Monday, May 6, 2013

Update update.


So, it looks like I will continue to work with the Alaska Alternate Assessment. We've reached an agreement around behavior, and I'll give away tasks that should not be on my plate anyway. It was a long and difficult conversation, but ended on a positive note. 

I'm going to go plant some flowers and not think about Alaska for a few hours. I'm also not NOT licking frogs... for my Simpsons loving friends... 

Sunday, May 5, 2013

And a life meditation...


Now that my ears have stopped ringing (well, almost) from the lawn mowing, and I've had a nice meditation, here's an update on my school/work plans (see "I've Decided")...
 
I may not be working for the Alaska Alternate Assessment project after all. I've offered my resignation, and Monday at 2:45 meet with my boss to see if any alternative exists in which I might continue working with him. Our relationship has been testy lately, and went to hell on Friday, and thus... I have offered to resign.

I went back to my Excel Life Plan, and, with very careful budgeting, I will be fine, even if I am completely unemployed and only a full time student. 

Come to think of it, I have never in my adult life been ONLY a full time student; I have always worked and gone to school. I started working at 16, a Junior in High School, and haven't stopped since, often working much more than full time while going to school. Not easy. I wonder what it would be like to have that much time and brain power available for schoolwork. This line of thinking does not bode well for my boss. This line of thinking tips the balance scale toward "Full Unemployment is a Great Idea" and away from the fear response of "Full Unemployment Should Be Avoided at All Costs."

David used to implement the "Austerity Plan" when we were married (much PTSD over that, but that's not my point here), and actually, I live fairly austerely. I don't buy new clothes (I'm losing weight and almost ready to open up boxes of great clothes I used to fit, so that will be like a new wardrobe), I don't upgrade my electronics every time a new version is offered, I don't eat out, or go to concerts (except when I picnic outside the Cuthbert and catch my favorites for free). I do save up to travel, and I try to help Jake and Sara out when I can. But I live well within my means. 

So an Austerity Plan for me would look like this: Build a cabin on the bottom part of my property and move into it (less than $8000, and Jerry said he would be happy to do this with me - read: Jerry is a retired contractor, and willing to help me with this scheme - er, project). Rent my whole house out, furnished, as an Executive Home Rental, for enough to cover the mortgage and minor repairs. I enjoy my house, but will really enjoy it if it pays for itself. I meet with my accountant Tuesday to see how much of future improvements could be tax deductible. I think all of them. So that saves money, too. In fact, whether I am employed or not, the Build A Cabin/Rent The House plan will be implemented.

So, Monday at about 3:00'ish, I'll have a better idea of my employment status next year. I am oddly at peace with all possible outcomes. Is this what the Buddhists mean by "Let go of desire"?

A gardening meditation



warm sunshiny day
no adult supervision
riding mower fun

cutting hillside grass
catamaraning balance
moments of terror

bright flowers planted
gloves protecting open wounds
ninja gardening
 
PS: No major injuries, really!  Just blisters from yesterday's gardening without gloves.